i'm not dead yet!

I haven't even gotten started!

Currently I'm in kind of a transition phase in my life. For the past four years I've been in a state of limbo...lazy and dispassionate about everything and not amounting to much of anything.

It's pretty much been me, my computer, and my couch.

Sort of embarrassing looking back on those years and realizing that I wasted almost half a decade doing pretty much nothing...

Originally, I had lots of goals after high school. I got into the art school I wanted to go to, made lots of friends, and everything felt like it was all on track. Unfortunately, paying for school became a problem after just one semester and I felt helpless. Someone had taken a credit card out in my name before I'd even turned 18 and I had really bad credit because of it so I couldn't even get a loan to help. I did try to dispute the credit card, but it was denied and I was stuck with it...

The school I was going to did nothing to help either. They wanted their money (that I didn't have) or I could go home...so I did. After that whole ordeal I was ready to give up on school and just live with my mom, my computer, and the couch. I actually did for four whole years. Instead of going to community college and trying for some scholarships, I convinced myself that I had no options and there was nothing to be done about it.

I worked on and off, here and there, and spent three years in limbo.

Last year is when things really started to change for me.

I got a job at Uniqlo on 5th Avenue in NYC and I loved it! I'd lived a pretty friendless and lonely three years and to have a chance to start over and make new friends was amazing. I enjoyed my job, loved my co-workers, and had a good time helping out customers. It was then that I decided it was time to dig myself out of this hole and start living again.

I quit Uniqlo in June for various reasons, but I still want to stay in contact with the good friends I made while there. After that I decided to get my ass in gear and give myself some goals. What goals? Well, a few but I'll probably mention them in another post.

Fast forward to now and I'm jobless, but back in school and holding onto the money I saved for dear life. I feel like I can do anything now and 2013 is going to be an amazing year for me.

This post is way longer than I wanted it to be, but I had to get that stuff off my chest in order to feel like I can actually start blogging. I don't have many readers right now, but I look forward to posting lots of fun things and meeting all sorts of new people!